just spent ~2 months tramping all over God's Creation (aka: Europe). Actually that reminds me of a funny Voltaire quote, "God created the Earth, except for Holland. The Dutch did that."

This leads me in to my now certain belief that the Dutch are amazing, that I love them, their country, and I wish to join in on their horrendous winters, scary oceans, tulips, touristas, and oh yes...coffee shops. No, I'm being cynical for no reason. Holland is beautiful. I love it. I wish to move there.

Which is why I am putting in applications for jobs. In Holland? No, for some reason I think this too risky. Im putting in applications for jobs here in Atlanta in order to raise funds, apply to schools, and generally MOVE TO HOLLAND. I'm considering Penn and Harvard my 2nd and 3rd choices respectively.

I've thought about going back to the head shrinker. But it's expensive and will certainly cut down on all this motivation I have.

there are two sides to everything.

wait a minute, this key wont unlock this door...if my baby dont love me no more...i know her sister will. caine + hendrix? why not?

lets forget this is a photoblog for a minute.

this semester is OVER. praise GOD. ive never had such a rotten awful smelly semester in my life. studio sucked, i had no passion for what i created! relationship fail in like every way. communication fail in every way. what a fucking mess. this was not my A-game.

i remember all those times that i've previously thought, "oh its good to fail. it really does give you a chance to re-evaluate your life, and build good skills." while part of me thinks thats true, man has it completely BLOWN.

regrets and things not to do again:
-regret too much!
-forget that georgia tech is a fine school
-put down the camera for as long as i have
-lack of passion for my project
-lost a sketchbooK! :-(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
-take an 8am math-based class (didnt actually have a choice in this matter...)
-take too many hours!
-give someone so much power over my happiness (lame!!!)
-started smoking again :-(

goals that i DID attain + things i like:
-organized the panel discussion
-did a design competition
-dated people/made new awesome friends
-made a cool-ass blog
-got better at/learned 5 software programs
-reconnected with the phi
-went to jessies baby shower
-wrote some graymatters posts w/o signing my life away to it
-ran a half-marathon
-got the 5k time down to ~24 minutes

summer! yes PLEASE. bring it ON. RE-STAAAAART :-) in EUROPE :-D!

all the best and all the worst.

rusans. eggs. colors from apriles room. things aprile likes. a phrase i tell people i think are fun. its getting late but i dont mind.

icing on the cake

icing on the cake. this is not my model nor my construction mess.