another crap nite :-p

i usually write in this blog when i feel like crap. its 3am. im sad my boyfriend isn't here. i keep imagining little things about him that i love so much. the way he looks like a cute puppy when he is sleeping, the scar on one of his fingers, his wonderful curly hair. im sad because he isn't beside me.
he is in the figural sense though. i guess i am scared that might end. i am scared that distance will be too much. i am scared that our plans might fall through. i think these fears are natural to have. it makes me so happy to know that we'll make it through. i have the best boyfriend in the world. he loves me and trusts me. i love and trust him. we make each other laugh. we care about our future together. we talk about what bothers us. we both love architecture but not so much that it takes away from each other. im extremely happy i have found someone so great. it may suck right now, but he'll be with me soon. we'll make it work. :)

keep calm and carry on. that's really the best mantra. that and i know that he loves me so much. im amazed by it every single day.

if i could do one thing i would forgive myself for whatever upsets me about this summer. i have this time now to make up for it by being strong. i need to realize that mats cannot always be the one to prop me up when i feel blue. i need to have that inside me. i need to know exactly what to do and just do it. fyi i love nikes slogan. just do it. it is so perfect.

just do it.

and soon it will be december and i will get to go to sweden :)!!!!!!
that is a super great treat to look forward to and it really could help me be happy every single day because EVERY SINGLE DAY GETS ME CLOSER. and i might as well spend those days being productive and happy as possible. :) go me! go us! darby nilsson for the win :)

love me the most
when i deserve it the least
because thats when i need it the most

europe. new summer. new fun.
stay tuned.

happy christmas :-)

seriously craving a cupcake. these are the best in atlanta...take that highland bakery! :-p

this american life is awesome :-)

studio is a little stalled at the moment for me and my partner. its hard to keep the creativity always flowing, especially since we reached a good level of design completeness. i know there are always details to flush out, revisions to be made, but these happen at a much slower pace. and to be completely honest i am incredibly exhausted by design work right now.

1/4" model? Rar!!!! I have a feeling he'll really come to life Saturday or Sunday. Til then...its Harry Potter, cleaning my room, and reading an interesting novel. I think I am really cool with that idea :-)

hooray for sleep! hooray for friday evenings! hooray for peanut butter cookies! hooray for Tuesday-Saturday off next week with a delicious meal and shopping in between :-)