space invade my wheels

back and forth thru my mind behind a cigarette.

having huge cravings lately. LSMFT.

Not really.

saw hot tub time machine tonite...again. it was hilarious. again.

i feel myself falling into a trap of comfort. RUN AWAY!!!!

ive always had a thing for curls. that's why today in the computer lab I was happy to work on my study abroad project in the row behind this curlyhaired cutie. chuck was talking about phenomenology, lane brought up the golden ratio. there was much discussion about an array of topics that i find amazingly sexy (music+goldenratio+diagrams+mappingmosquitobites). then i realized that i knew the guy from somewhere. it bothered me all day. WHERE THE HELL DID I KNOW THIS GUY FROM?

i racked thru my brain looking for a suitable explanation for where i had seen him.
i was like hm, maybe he's an ID student and now he switched to arch for grad school. maybe he's one of those mysterious city planning kids that morphs into architecture. maybe i knew him from the USGBC stuff that i do and met him at one of the networking events there.

i was thinking all of these things while i took a long sip from my tea.
from.

the.

coffee.

cart.

[[[[flashback]]]]
me: ok im done studying for my structures test. now to make a tshirt that says "I LOVE CONCRETE" and hope it gives me good luck.
brad: you are so going to get hit on tomorrow.
....next day after the test....
coffee cart guy: hey, nice shirt.
me: heh yeah i just got out of a concrete test.
coffee cart guy: NICE. yeah, im a civil engineering major so i have to take lots of tests on concrete.
me: that sounds...cool?

i also remember taking my americano and leaving quickly.

just spent ~2 months tramping all over God's Creation (aka: Europe). Actually that reminds me of a funny Voltaire quote, "God created the Earth, except for Holland. The Dutch did that."

This leads me in to my now certain belief that the Dutch are amazing, that I love them, their country, and I wish to join in on their horrendous winters, scary oceans, tulips, touristas, and oh yes...coffee shops. No, I'm being cynical for no reason. Holland is beautiful. I love it. I wish to move there.

Which is why I am putting in applications for jobs. In Holland? No, for some reason I think this too risky. Im putting in applications for jobs here in Atlanta in order to raise funds, apply to schools, and generally MOVE TO HOLLAND. I'm considering Penn and Harvard my 2nd and 3rd choices respectively.

I've thought about going back to the head shrinker. But it's expensive and will certainly cut down on all this motivation I have.